Hey y'all!
I discovered something very interesting indeed. I am planning to test for my second dan black belt in December of 2010, and I found out some things about it. I discovered that I have to write a large essay (which is fine), and then I have to write a two part exam (which is also fine), but I also have to do a conditioning peice that will last for 30 min. That is also fine, but I need to get more fit.
Some people testing last time couldn't finish the conditioning and ended up failing the exam. Which sucks. Majorly.
So in order to pass the whole exam, I defidently need to up my game when it comes to preparing for it. I also need to make some even BIGGER life changes than I was trying to make before. Now; run everyday, bucket loads of crunches, and weight practice. I just truly don't want to look like a weight lifter at the end of this...
However, I need to do it in order to pass. I will do ANYTHING to pass this test. It means so much to me, and if I have to work my butt off to do well...
Then consider it done!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
My Diagnosis
Okay. So I was being a little emo child yesterday. I apologize.
I woke up this morning and was actually happy. I suppose this makes sense that I went to bed at 12:00 am rather than 2:00 am like most nights...yeah. So that helped, hehehe... ^^"
I also figured out what I must do in order to get myself feeling good again. Get healthier. I like to sit around during the summer and play video games and watch anime (it's it HEAVEN, trust me) but I have been inspired to get healtheir and actually move a little bit on my days off. Starting today.
Please root me on and push me to continue doing this. I could use the back-up. I want to look good for grad and also just to feel better about myself!
So let's get started! :3
I woke up this morning and was actually happy. I suppose this makes sense that I went to bed at 12:00 am rather than 2:00 am like most nights...yeah. So that helped, hehehe... ^^"
I also figured out what I must do in order to get myself feeling good again. Get healthier. I like to sit around during the summer and play video games and watch anime (it's it HEAVEN, trust me) but I have been inspired to get healtheir and actually move a little bit on my days off. Starting today.
Please root me on and push me to continue doing this. I could use the back-up. I want to look good for grad and also just to feel better about myself!
So let's get started! :3
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Crash and Burn
So things. Not so great.
I can't really put my finger on it, but my self-esteem compltely crashed and now I am a miserable wreck. How fun. Honestly though, everything is so bad...I'm flipping out at people constantly and being so pissed off all the time. I'm just so constantly sad. I also feel bad for flipping out on the people who I am doing that to, because they don't deserve it. I know they don't. But I'm treating everyone like crap and if I ever did anything to anyone who is reading this that was mean in the past few days or have been really quiet in conversations, I am so so so sorry...
I feel like I'm nothing. Not worth thinking about. I dislike myself to the extreme right now. Why do I feel like this? I need to get this out of my system...and fast. I need to get through this rough patch in my life.
I'm at war with myself.
I can't really put my finger on it, but my self-esteem compltely crashed and now I am a miserable wreck. How fun. Honestly though, everything is so bad...I'm flipping out at people constantly and being so pissed off all the time. I'm just so constantly sad. I also feel bad for flipping out on the people who I am doing that to, because they don't deserve it. I know they don't. But I'm treating everyone like crap and if I ever did anything to anyone who is reading this that was mean in the past few days or have been really quiet in conversations, I am so so so sorry...
I feel like I'm nothing. Not worth thinking about. I dislike myself to the extreme right now. Why do I feel like this? I need to get this out of my system...and fast. I need to get through this rough patch in my life.
I'm at war with myself.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
A Love Song
From the look in your eyes, I have realized all that matters
- Juliet Simms
Ah, love songs.
I love love songs :) Actually I am listening to one right now. When I say love song, I do mean, ones that explain how they feel when they are around somebody and how much they care about them. Not the silly songs that they play today that they call love songs.
Most 'love' songs today are only about people who want to party all night long with girls or guys and they will wake up beside them the next morning and leave them. Everything is physical. It's rather frustrating. For example, some have girls dancing in revealling outfits around a guy in their music videos and having a circle of women or men around them grovelling at their feet, making them feel like they're 'all that'.
Those types of songs are not love songs. Not real ones. A love song is a poem of real, authentic, powerful feelings expressed through sound. They are what makes us all think of that one person you give you heart to and make you wish they were in your arms that very second. A real love song is when all your positive emotions seem to take you over, and you physically feel a little lighter. Those are the songs that make you think just how much that one person in your life means to you and really makes you feel; which is too great for words. That is what a real love song is.
In my opinion, the world really needs some more of them. In the words of one of my heroes, Adam Lambert;
"All we need in this world is some love."
- Adam Lambert
So when you have a chance, tell the person you care about so much just how much you love them and care about them. This world can use a little more love :)
- Juliet Simms
Ah, love songs.
I love love songs :) Actually I am listening to one right now. When I say love song, I do mean, ones that explain how they feel when they are around somebody and how much they care about them. Not the silly songs that they play today that they call love songs.
Most 'love' songs today are only about people who want to party all night long with girls or guys and they will wake up beside them the next morning and leave them. Everything is physical. It's rather frustrating. For example, some have girls dancing in revealling outfits around a guy in their music videos and having a circle of women or men around them grovelling at their feet, making them feel like they're 'all that'.
Those types of songs are not love songs. Not real ones. A love song is a poem of real, authentic, powerful feelings expressed through sound. They are what makes us all think of that one person you give you heart to and make you wish they were in your arms that very second. A real love song is when all your positive emotions seem to take you over, and you physically feel a little lighter. Those are the songs that make you think just how much that one person in your life means to you and really makes you feel; which is too great for words. That is what a real love song is.
In my opinion, the world really needs some more of them. In the words of one of my heroes, Adam Lambert;
"All we need in this world is some love."
- Adam Lambert
So when you have a chance, tell the person you care about so much just how much you love them and care about them. This world can use a little more love :)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Welcoming Back Seasons
Ah, August. On of my favoritist months of the year. Not only is it because it's my birthday soon *yay* but it is the start of my favorite season; autumn.
I think, personally, that autumn is the best season of all time. The leaves changing on the trees; the reds and oranges and browns that seem to add a little more color to our once green world. Soon, the our world will change into an A&W :)
It's also the comfy and cool season that we get on a yearly basis. I am a cool temperture type of person, so sitting around in a cold environment is perfect for someone like me. That's just where I am most comfertable, and it is also just what I am use to. I love it. It's much better than being hot; all sweaty and yucky and smelly and sweaty and sticky and slippery and sweaty. Can you tell I don't like being sweaty? It's just bleh. Then it takes forever to actually cool down in the first place. You chug down multiple drinks in attempts to lower your body temperature and then after you do, you have to pee like a racehorse. You just can't win.
Then, when it comes to being cold, you can cuddle up in a big fluffy blanket and a mug of hot substances, whichever you may prefer, and drink it to your hearts content and be comfy and snuggly all day. You can give people hugs and they will last longer because you are absorbing their body heat. See? Now when you're cold everybody wins!
Also, in autumn, since it is a little more chilly than normal, I get to wear lots and lots of the best type of clothing in the whole wide world...hoodies. I love hoodies. Too much actually hahaha. I have so many, but they are one of my favorite articles of clothing, and therefore I have millions of them. And so should you. Well, okay, maybe not millions...but that would be pretty wicked. In the summer, such as now, I cannot wear my wonderful, beautiful, lovely hoodies. Because of the sun. Grrr. It makes me hot. Much. Too. Hot. So, I am stuck wearing t-shirts (not that t-shirts are bad, I do enjoy t-shirts, but my true love is hoodies) instead of my fashion of choice. Ah well. Soon, I need not worry about that.
Anyway, let us all watch our green, warm world slowly develop into a cooler, orangeier one :)
And yes, it will be beautiful.
I think, personally, that autumn is the best season of all time. The leaves changing on the trees; the reds and oranges and browns that seem to add a little more color to our once green world. Soon, the our world will change into an A&W :)
It's also the comfy and cool season that we get on a yearly basis. I am a cool temperture type of person, so sitting around in a cold environment is perfect for someone like me. That's just where I am most comfertable, and it is also just what I am use to. I love it. It's much better than being hot; all sweaty and yucky and smelly and sweaty and sticky and slippery and sweaty. Can you tell I don't like being sweaty? It's just bleh. Then it takes forever to actually cool down in the first place. You chug down multiple drinks in attempts to lower your body temperature and then after you do, you have to pee like a racehorse. You just can't win.
Then, when it comes to being cold, you can cuddle up in a big fluffy blanket and a mug of hot substances, whichever you may prefer, and drink it to your hearts content and be comfy and snuggly all day. You can give people hugs and they will last longer because you are absorbing their body heat. See? Now when you're cold everybody wins!
Also, in autumn, since it is a little more chilly than normal, I get to wear lots and lots of the best type of clothing in the whole wide world...hoodies. I love hoodies. Too much actually hahaha. I have so many, but they are one of my favorite articles of clothing, and therefore I have millions of them. And so should you. Well, okay, maybe not millions...but that would be pretty wicked. In the summer, such as now, I cannot wear my wonderful, beautiful, lovely hoodies. Because of the sun. Grrr. It makes me hot. Much. Too. Hot. So, I am stuck wearing t-shirts (not that t-shirts are bad, I do enjoy t-shirts, but my true love is hoodies) instead of my fashion of choice. Ah well. Soon, I need not worry about that.
Anyway, let us all watch our green, warm world slowly develop into a cooler, orangeier one :)
And yes, it will be beautiful.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Summer Depressants
Have you ever just had something snap in your mind and not fully understand why it happened in the first place? Such as having negative thoughts or some silly realization about something in the past...and now are stuck with looking at your world with a different light? Also, that doesn't necessarily mean a positive outlook either. That's what happened to me. Again. Unfortunatly.
It sucks when this happens too...not only can I not explain why it happens, but I also can't explain what triggers it in the first place. It's super annoying. Plus, it's very depressing. At the moment, I tend to find myself listening to depressing music and being sad. Well, I mean, I always listen to depressing music, hahaha, but this time, it's effecting me much more than I thought it usually should.
Let's just hope this goes away.
It sucks when this happens too...not only can I not explain why it happens, but I also can't explain what triggers it in the first place. It's super annoying. Plus, it's very depressing. At the moment, I tend to find myself listening to depressing music and being sad. Well, I mean, I always listen to depressing music, hahaha, but this time, it's effecting me much more than I thought it usually should.
Let's just hope this goes away.
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