At Skool

Ello poppets :)

I am currently at school, sitting beside one of my partners in crime and blogging about weird things because THERE IS NOTHING ELSE TO DO. ALL AWESOME SITES ARE BLOCKED AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but that's ok :3 I can deal with it. Maybe I'll just be a creeper and look up pictures of cool people or google stupid things for a while. Yes. Sound like a plan. Toodles~

Beside You - Marianas Trench

These are the lyrics I promised the other day when I was mad :)

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up,
And I will hide you if it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

I would do the whole song, but then someone might see it and be like OMG COPYRIGHT and freak out on my and then they'll break into my house and smash up my computer and that would make me very sad because it is a nice computer and then I won't be able to blog or facebook or yahoo! ask or msn or youtube or newgrounds or microsoft word or microsoft office or powerpoint or destroy the world or send hate mail or recieve hate mail or type things or click my mouse or press the start button or turn on the monitor or become glued to the screen (not literally, mind you) or ramble on about silly nonsence that makes no sense and make so many run-on sentances that it will make my english teacher want to hit me over the head with a ruler stick but that's ok because I already finished my english exam for this semester so I don't have an english teacher anymore so I have no ruler beatings to worry about for now but I suppose that I should hide this from my next english teacher who I will have next semester and make sure she doesn't see this because if she does then she will becomd very upset and try to hit me with her own ruler stick and that is not very nice and then she will be in deep trouble for hitting a student and get a suspension from their job she will be sad because she is suspended and I ill be sad because I now have a bruise and then she will find me and hit me again because she is mad at me that I got her suspended but really it wasn't me who got her in trouble and it isn't very nice to blame other innocent and angelic children for their own problems and pretend that they did nothing wrong. Naw, she wouldn't do that. My next english teacher is too nice for that shanaigan :) By the way, guess what I just lost? My sanity. Yes, I made you lose the game. :)

Messed Up

I'm feeling generally pretty lonely lately...it's no fun :( I just feel like I'm drifting away from so many people I am so close to, and it's so weird because just a few weeks ago, everything was fine. Like, a few weeks ago, I was totally cool with how life is, but now everything is slowly, but surley, going to down the drain. I wish there was some way that I could fix everything and reconnect with those people. I have no idea how though...I also feel like a friend of mine isn't treating me fairly. Again, everything was perfectly fine a few weeks ago! Now I'm being dissed to my face and behind my back apparantly. I've been through this crap so many times before, I thought that maybe at this point in my life I could escape from all that. Apparantly I was wrong. I can't seem to get away from people who shoot me down all the time. I wish I had an idea why...I have no clue! Is it my personality? Is it the way I do things, or think about things? What in this world is it that makes me a person that is an easy target for being shot down all the time? It's not fair anymore...I'm so sick of this crap. I'm sick of losing people in my life, who I care about so much, I would call them my family, and I'm so bloody sick of being shot down all the time. I wish the big guy up there can just give me a restart button on life sometimes...maybe there is a way I can change and be less of a volnurable person. I dunno. Or maybe it was just meant to be this way...and I was meant to live my life and one person always gets to shoot me down. Not once in my life have I not had someone who tries to kick me down right after I finish getting up again. Life isn't fair. Nor is it easy. Sometimes I just feel like everything I say or do doesn't have as much meaning anymore. Does it even? If so, who in my life thinks so? I wish I could be more of a strong person when it comes to sticking up for myself. Once my self-esteem has even an ounce of damage to it, I'm screwed over for a really long time. In chemistry, a guy in my class called me a bitch because he was mad at me for trying to get him to do his work. (Yeah, very logical way to solve a problem, isn't it?) Anyways, I just got over that...and that happened almost 2 and a half weeks ago. If I could just get closer with the people I am slowly drifting away from once more, I would be on top of the world again. I may just be over thinking again...I don't know. I also want some respect, damnit, seriously. I want to feel like I matter. Sometimes, I don't. Like now. Thinkng about certain song lyrics help this I suppose. Or thinking about the people who do care about me. I love you guys :) *hugs* haha, yeah, there are a few people out there who I know care, and I feel so lucky to have them in my life. I would be so lost without them. So to finish of this somewhat mellow and unhappy blog post, I'll quote one of my all time favorite songs that makes me feel better if I feel sad. The whole song actually, but I'll make a second post for that :) *sigh* well I feel a little better now. Ranting sure feels good :)

Team Riccy VS Team Dancing-Shadows

Hello :)
Me and my friend are having an epic fight battle of epicness! Not literally mind you. It's not very nice to fight with your friends. Fighting is bad. Violence is never the answer. BUT ANYWAYS we are making a poll of teams. We both need supporters and we are making a poll to see whose team people will join and be supporters. Please vote to be on my team!! If you do, I'll give you a big hug and I'll tell you you're the coolest person EVER, even though you totally are already, I'll just be reminding you that you are ^^ Yes, I am a suck up. Just in case your wondering. Tee hee <3 And if you want to be on both Team Riccy AND Team Dancing-Shadows, support would be much appreciated from the both of us. LET THE BATTLE BEGIN!
Leave a comment to say your choice of team~ or just a comment. I love comments. They make me happy...please leave a comment!! It can be completly random!! Thanks a bunch =)

Christmas and New Years

I guess before I actually say anything, I should probably say MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE~
Unfortunatly, I was REALLY sick with the flu...about 4 hours of sleep isn't much, and I had my first real day of real food today (yay!) The past few days have been full of soup broth and gaterade (best liquid thingy stuff EVER <3) and water. Good, deliciousm healthy water. mmm :) I physically look like a zombie a little bit still, but that's alright...I'm alive...at least I feel and look better than I did before...but I am not dead! I'm bouncing back! :D But now I have a cold. Great XD lol
I hope that you all had fun celebrating your holidays of choice, and that you had a spectaular new years! No hang-overs now. You know, now that I think about it, I wonder how many people actually have a hang-over right now. This must be the one day in history where there is the most hang-overs at one given time in the world. And why do people have to drunk so much on New Years Eve? Why not on Halloween? Or Easter? Not including Christmas, but I guess that would be second place for hang-overs...anyways. Don't drink and drive. There. I made a positive comment about alcohol in this post. Anyways, I hope you had a great holiday, get well soon if you are ill, and have a fun year in 2010 :)